Of course my medical logical mind understands that there must
have been something terribly wrong with it so that at ~ 7 weeks it stopped
growing, and therefore living. But the emotional, mother to be inside me was
simply devastated. My husband and I have so much love to give! It would only
make sense that we would be blessed with two at a time! And to hear this news
has brought great sadness to us. But, BUT! I can’t be too sad; I still have my
little spawny gummy bear parasite inside me! Clearly it does not deserve to be
forgotten and loved less! It does not deserve this sad environment to grow in.
So in an attempt to change my mind yesterday I stayed home-had
sad moments- and knit knit knit. And I finished my 1st little
project for my incoming little one. This brought me happiness knowing that 1-
this was something positive and loving and 2-i had something COMPLETED!!!! Oh
the satisfaction of having something completed.
Scrapbooking as much as I love it, is a very long project that requires
a lot of time and attention. But a knitting project- you start with a ball of
yarn- a few needles- a pattern and off you go!
The repetitive movement of the knitting is soothing. I have
also discovered- that having never practiced it before- I am not really good at
cross-stitching. I went forward- knowing
that this little babe will not be too worried on the evenness of the whiskers.
oops knit too long!
the cat- modeling - how's the likeness?
I based it off a pattern from Phildar, that I purchased at Le Tricot. I just loved how lovely and easy
this pattern is. They have an entirety of patterns for beginners. It makes for quick and easy projects! So now on to the next! I want to work on my
scrapbooks- and knit some more. Because I am very much aware that after the
spawn is born I won’t get much sleep and know that it will win out over crafts.
For a bit...
I am sorry for your loss, Kat. But you do have the right attitude; you have one baby alive, growing strong, that deserves all the love in the world. I lost a baby that left a huge void inside me, and I am happy that you are not going through this pain. Keep smiling, and expecting! I hope you are feeling better!
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P.S. Btw, I loveee this super cute hat! So have so many talents! I am jealous! xx
ReplyDeleteonce again hon,sorry for loss,when you told me,my heart broke for you.i think that your way of thinking is the only healthy way to get thru this.If knitting helped you,than that makes this adorable hat even more special.xo
ReplyDeletep.s I think spawny looks more like you than hubby.
It's a lizard! ;) cute hat.
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